Daryl Grunau

Daryl Grunau | Life | Design | Coffee | God |

Doing my best

Well it’s been one whole month since I left my job and joined the unemployed list. It feels like it’s been a roller coaster of a month. For starters, this month also happens to be the busiest month for my wife and her new job as a Pastor. From conferences, meetings, new volunteers, small events, large events, she has been very busy. I’m really hoping November is different. But as a shout out to her, she’s doing an amazing job and it’s been exciting to see her take on this leadership. After seeing her in the behind the scenes role for various jobs, at the church, camp and in any ministry I was apart of, it’s really is great to see her leading.

So with that background info out of the way, life has been living in the unknown. Or at least it feels that way. I set out from the beginning wanted to be in the centre of God’s will for my life. I am grateful for the ways he has blessed myself and our family with ways to serve and impact the lives of others. I won’t go into details, but leaving my “ministry job” I don’t feel I’ve left ministry. Which speaks to the core that discipleship, is NOT a CALLING, it is a COMMAND. If we call ourselves a FOLLOWER of CHRIST, and we aren’t putting our best effort, and asking God to allow us to be used by him to disciple, WE ARE DOING SOMETHING WRONG. And I would add, we have to ask ourselves if we are really followers at all. {stepping off soapbox} With that in mind, this whole job thing puzzles me. I know I can serve God just find without a vocational ministry job, but my question has been this whole month, “What else should I do?” So far, I have been having a hard time answering that question. I love graphic design, web design, coffee, R/C, administration and being a helper, even managing, but I keep feeling a lack of direction. So this month, I’ve thought about so many different areas I could pursue. And you know what? I’m not any closer than I was Oct 1st.

But I figure I need to just do something, right? And it’s at these moments that I feel this sense that I don’t need the money. I watched Francis Chan speak on “Lukewarm and Loving it” this past week and felt like I don’t even want a job. I know that might not make sense, but it’s how I felt after watching it. But then I think about, my kids, van tires, dishwasher repair, unfinished bathroom and the list goes on and on. And I know God will provide, that He will look after us, my kids will be okay, and life will go on. But I still know, that I can’t sit at home all day and do nothing. So I am going to do something. I tweaked my personal website; the resume, portfolio, pricing info one. I’m not going to go into all that detail, you can check it yourself. But my hopes are to actually use some of my skills and abilities to help someone.

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t the end of the story, I’m not even sure it’s the start. I still have ideas bouncing around in my head about roasting coffee, doing more with my rchelper.ca website, being a real barista*, and even finding a job back in ministry. The weirdest idea is one that would have me roasting coffee while being a virtual assistant, and building websites. I don’t know how that works, but in my head, it does.

Thanks for tagging along.


*real barista is one that uses a manual espresso machine. ie.not starbucks

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