Daryl Grunau

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Taking Steps

Well life has begun to change. God has been answering prayers and guiding in those next steps. I went through a waiting period that wasn’t as simple or as easy as I thought. Oh I had plans, and I tried to make them happen on my own time, but to make a long story shorter, it never works out like that. Go figure.

I was applying at a huge amount of jobs, submitting resumes, all while trying to build a small client base for freelance graphic and web design; which I thought might actually be where God was leading me. While I’ve thought about being a business owner before, the actual “business side” of it, has always scared me away. But I thought if God was leading me that way, that I would have to obey. So I started getting some clients, and jobs, which was a nice change and the added income was beginning to become more of a necessity from my lack of work. Then to make things even more fun, I was able to get a coffee roaster. I’ve always wanted to learn more about coffee roasting, and from a purely economical standpoint, I thought it would save me money (green beans are cheaper), and give me a chance to learn more about coffee. What came was the chance to design a logo for my coffee and begin selling it to friends and family. Win-Win. The third win is enjoying amazingly fresh coffee. Sidenote: stay tuned for Vector Coffee Company’s website to show off my offerings. But that’s not all…

Out of the blue I saw another job opening that I hadn’t seen yet and submitted a resume electronically. Now up to this point I hadn’t got a single reply from a electronically submitted resume and I thought I would need to go down to the company and apply in person. But God had something else in mind for me. The owner contacted me via social media, then a phone call, then an interview, another phone call, and finally I was offer a job!!!! So I am now a barista at City Perks in Saskatoon. I’m so excited about starting my career path in the cafe/coffee/barista business. And excited for future possibilities at this cafe. They are undertaking a large renovations over the holidays and early January and then a more intensive training will begin. While I’ve only had a few shifts, I’m loving it! The customers and staff I work with are all great. It’s a very tight community in the City Park area of Saskatoon which makes this a unique place to work. I look forward to where God will take me in this new line of work, and how he will use this for His Glory.

So I apologize in advance, if you had gotten sick of me talking about coffee, that’s not going anywhere. But I will promise one thing, you can expect a better cup of coffee after each visit. So when I’m not on shift at City Perks, I’m always willing to brew up a sweet cup right at my home. Feel free to stop in sometime.

Until next time.
A motto I’ve adopted from a great coffee shop in Edmonton, “Drink Less, More Often”


Taking it’s toll

Life is taking it’s toll.

I didn’t want to admit it. But being unemployed, moving from full time ministry to nothing, watching my wife take on a leadership role (which is awesome BTW), winter arriving, all seems to be affecting me a lot more than I want to admit. Change is not easy. Role reversal is not easy.

I know I have been getting anxious about my future, and I’ve been trying to call out to God, to seek Him, to read the Word. But I’m a guy, and I like action, I need to physically do something. So sometimes it’s hard, and sometimes it’s easy. It was easier a day ago, when I got an unexpected email from someone I deeply respect. I had been praying alot that day for direction, job, future, maybe more than previous, and I feel God used him to tell me to keep waiting, keep trusting, because God. is. in. control. AMEN.

Strangely, I’ve found mundane tasks have a relaxing effect. Dishes, laundry, preparing for quests, and yes, making coffees, all seem to be something that helps. Relaxes, takes my mind off things. Maybe that gift of hospitality, and service is higher than I thought, but I guess that’s another post for another day.

I also must admit that lately I’ve felt alone. I don’t know why I needed to say that. But I do. Oh my wife and kids are awesome and I love them so much. I’ve got to hear my daughter pray for daddy’s job which has been great, and my wife has been supportive throughout this whole journey I’m on. I dunno, maybe it’s just the fact that I’m not in an office working with adults, or maybe I need to be more open and transparent with others. I mean, 3 nights a week I’m serving or in community with some amazing brothers and sisters in Christ, why on earth should I feel alone, right? Anyone else understand? I know that in my life I’ve always struggled with this, being closed off and not open with others quickly. Heck, it’s probably one reason I worked with the same person for so long, I didn’t want to leave that comfort. Hmm, I guess God wanted to break that trend and force me.

Last night I couldn’t sleep. And not just the insomnia-i-can’t-fall-asleep-thing like usual. I mean I was awake. And it was eery in our house. So quiet. And I couldn’t shake it. Showering at 3am seemed to help. I think maybe I’m in the midst of a metamorphosis, like how my child eats tons of food during a growth spurt, so I must need more awake times. And this change is of soul, and of mind. I’m excited and terrified.

Matthew 28:20 …And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.



Doing my best

Well it’s been one whole month since I left my job and joined the unemployed list. It feels like it’s been a roller coaster of a month. For starters, this month also happens to be the busiest month for my wife and her new job as a Pastor. From conferences, meetings, new volunteers, small events, large events, she has been very busy. I’m really hoping November is different. But as a shout out to her, she’s doing an amazing job and it’s been exciting to see her take on this leadership. After seeing her in the behind the scenes role for various jobs, at the church, camp and in any ministry I was apart of, it’s really is great to see her leading.

So with that background info out of the way, life has been living in the unknown. Or at least it feels that way. I set out from the beginning wanted to be in the centre of God’s will for my life. I am grateful for the ways he has blessed myself and our family with ways to serve and impact the lives of others. I won’t go into details, but leaving my “ministry job” I don’t feel I’ve left ministry. Which speaks to the core that discipleship, is NOT a CALLING, it is a COMMAND. If we call ourselves a FOLLOWER of CHRIST, and we aren’t putting our best effort, and asking God to allow us to be used by him to disciple, WE ARE DOING SOMETHING WRONG. And I would add, we have to ask ourselves if we are really followers at all. {stepping off soapbox} With that in mind, this whole job thing puzzles me. I know I can serve God just find without a vocational ministry job, but my question has been this whole month, “What else should I do?” So far, I have been having a hard time answering that question. I love graphic design, web design, coffee, R/C, administration and being a helper, even managing, but I keep feeling a lack of direction. So this month, I’ve thought about so many different areas I could pursue. And you know what? I’m not any closer than I was Oct 1st.

But I figure I need to just do something, right? And it’s at these moments that I feel this sense that I don’t need the money. I watched Francis Chan speak on “Lukewarm and Loving it” this past week and felt like I don’t even want a job. I know that might not make sense, but it’s how I felt after watching it. But then I think about, my kids, van tires, dishwasher repair, unfinished bathroom and the list goes on and on. And I know God will provide, that He will look after us, my kids will be okay, and life will go on. But I still know, that I can’t sit at home all day and do nothing. So I am going to do something. I tweaked my personal website; the resume, portfolio, pricing info one. I’m not going to go into all that detail, you can check it yourself. But my hopes are to actually use some of my skills and abilities to help someone.

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t the end of the story, I’m not even sure it’s the start. I still have ideas bouncing around in my head about roasting coffee, doing more with my rchelper.ca website, being a real barista*, and even finding a job back in ministry. The weirdest idea is one that would have me roasting coffee while being a virtual assistant, and building websites. I don’t know how that works, but in my head, it does.

Thanks for tagging along.


*real barista is one that uses a manual espresso machine. ie.not starbucks


New venture

While I’m on the countdown, I have had to find something to keep me busy. One of my passions that I received while working for Ranger Lake was a love for Radio Controlled (R/C) trucks. Part of my job involved running and basically being a R/C Director for the summer skill as well as offseason racing program I ran last year. I also got a reputation in camp circles around the country as ‘the RC guy’ and as a result ended up selling and consulting with half a dozen or more camps from Victoria to Quebec in setting up their R/C program at their camps. I particularly loved helping teach, train and facilitate with these camps. So I’ve decided to continue this venture by starting up a website to spill my knowledge and hopefully still find a way to sell some product personally or on behalf of Ranger Lake.

The site is RCHELPER.CA

It’s still a work in progress as I am trying to add as much knowledge and content to the site right now as possible. Next week when I’m officially unemployed I should be able to really begin adding more as I’ll need something to do.

I also like feedback, even if you aren’t looking to get into the hobby.


Countdown to what

Well my last week is here and I’m on countdown. So after tonight, 2 days left of my employment at Ranger Lake. But what continues to elude me is the what next. While I maybe counting down my current employment, I find myself not knowing what I’m counting down to. And I’m okay with it.

Sort of.

But today I was reminded that I’ve been so focused on the “what next”, that I haven’t spent much time processing what I’ve been through these past years, what I’ll be missing, and how I’ve been so blessed to get to the place I’m at. So it’s probably good that I won’t have a job to goto starting Monday. Let the reflection time begin.

But I will say this. Today at the office, in what seemed like any other day we stopped as staff to pray. Some prayer requests regarding some summer staff was brought to our attention, so we took time to pray.

That is the first thing I will miss.


It’s almost time

Well it’s cold, the ground is covered in snow, the winter tires have been put on the cars and when I enter stores I am surrounded by crazy shoppers. It’s almost time for the holidays and Christmas. I’m not sure why I have a love-hate relationship with Christmas time. It’s not like I had a terribly childhood or some tragic event that I am being reminded of. It’s actually quite the opposite, I have great memories of family Christmas at the farm. From the hours building snow forts, to the annual Christmas Eve time of opening those loot bags from Church services, to the anticipation of Christmas morning, there was always much to be thankful for and to remember. So now I’m a father, with two wonderful girls, it’s suppose to be my turn to build those same memories into my own family, my turn to put up the ridiculous amount of lights on the tree, the house, the everything and I just don’t feel excited about it. Oh, I am excited to see Libby’s face Christmas morning and to snuggle up with her and read the Christmas story and to teach her about why Jesus coming to earth is so very important. But all that other stuff, I’m just not ready for it, or even wanting it.

Sure everyone keeps telling me, “You’re a Scrooge”, “Ba humbug to you”, “Where’s your Christmas Spirit?” And frankly, I’m getting rather sick of it. In fact, those comments probably make it worse. I have Christmas spirit, I want to show and teach to my family and to others what really matters at Christmas. Does my house really need to be visible from a radar image for me to “have Christmas spirit?.” Even Christmas trees and all the decorations and dare I say it, even the many nativity scenes around…. is this all there is too it? Decorate, give some socially conscientious presents, eat way too much food, sing a carol or two and call it another Christmas season? I think we’ve ALL missed the mark somehow. I think that’s why I don’t enjoy all the preparations. And yes, I have thought this for awhile and I’ve done nothing to change. Shame on me. But shame on all of us for letting Christmas simply get out of hand. I mean, my Savior came down to earth in a very humble manner. He choose a stable, a barn, the most humble surroundings to arrive. And how do we choose to celebrate? Big events, tons of decorations, hours shopping for gifts and let’s be honest, gift cards, for others that don’t need anything at all. Doesn’t anyone else find this to be, well, strange?

Well, I’m telling you this all so that people will quit saying I have no Christmas spirit, but also as a form of accountability. This Christmas I am going to do something different. Instead of just complaining I’m going to seek out different ways to celebrate and I’m going to look for humble ways to do that. For starters, this year Christmas day is actually open for just my family to do whatever we want, no gatherings for either side. So we are looking for a place to go and serve others, humbly serve those in need. So if anyone has an idea for a place a family of 4 with 2 small Children can go to serve on Dec 25th, I’d love to hear your suggestions.

Other ways I’m going to change, well, I’m not sure. Don’t think I can get away without any decorations, as my wife might shoot me, but I do want to do something different. Ideas?

PS. I still haven’t started listening to Christmas music yet. Ugh. And the picture is just for Jess


What to do?

So I have come to realize that this site has really been put on hold lately. I think it’s that darn facebook that’s too blame. I finally actually logged into my blog and realized that even with it’s inactivity that I am still getting traffic to the site. Weird. In fact, I have almost as much traffic as the Ranger Lake website. So now I am thinking that I need to bring this blog back to where it once was. What would you like to see here? Let me know in the comments


Finally an update

So I guess my blog is living up to it’s name recently. The Terrible part that is. A lot of things in my life have taken a back seat while camp is on. We are now at the halfway point of our summer camps, although if I count from May we are way past half I guess. Anyways, I didn’t take time from my busy camp schedule to complain or to be down on my blog. I appreciate all of you for reading my blog, even with it’s very few updates and it’s sporadic nature. I love you all. I took this time to share my heart about what’s been going on in my life and the life of my family. So here goes…

This spring coming into camp I felt very confident and at ease with where God was moving and how I knew that God was in control of everything here. The month of June is and was the hardest month for our family. Due to the camp life, I end up being at camp for most of June and my family ends up being back home. I get to come home most weekends and whenever I get a day off, but it takes it’s toll on the family. I know that this spring has been particularly hard on Dawn as life with Norah and the stresses of her health still very much exist and at times seem to linger. Add to the fact that I am away alot just makes it more difficult for Dawn. While Dawn struggles to deal with everything and handle the kids, pretty much as a single parent, I am not immune to struggles as well. It would seem that not having kids to deal with while working would be nice, in fact it takes it toll on me. Nonetheless, our family survive the month and soon they joined me at camp.
This summer, Dawn has been very excited to get more involved with camp in whatever way works. From getting involved in some admin duties, which she loves, to getting to mentor a bunch of girls, which she loves even more, she has really felt alot more connected to camp and staff than last year. This is awesome. As she has gotten involved more, so her support of what I am doing grows even stronger than before. I am so thankful for my amazing wife and her love and understanding of this wonderful ministry. Praise God!
What has been on our minds lately has been the continued stress of Norah’s health. Some of you may or may not know (from reading Dawn’s posts too), that Norah has some issues with her spine/ribs. She has a curvature of her spine and some fused ribs. We are told that she will have to see a specialist to monitor her growth until she is done growing!! Please pray that things will be alright with this, as the biggest issue is her ribs. If they stay fused then that side of her body can’t grow and develop properly and it makes it very difficult for her organs to grow. If it gets worse then she would have to undergo another surgery. This one would be alot longer and more involved than even the open heart surgery she already had. I can’t begin to tell you how much we want to avoid that! Also, due to the defects she’s had together she recently underwent an ultrasound on her kidneys, as it can be common for these defects to all be connected and for more issues to exist as well. We are waiting on the results right now and are praying that her kidneys are fine.
Lastly, in her recent checkup it was noted that she is only 13lbs!!! They are worried about her weight gain, and we are now tasked with trying to get as many proteins and such into her little body. Pray that Norah will gain weight. She is strong and can actually stand, situp, and take steps when holding our hands, but is just so tiny. All in all, I am finding it more and more difficult to remain peaceful about everything. God has given us amazing peace, but before and during the surgery. We are so thankful for all your prayers and I just feel that I need another dose of God’s people to continue praying for Norah and us as we continue to deal with it all. Thanks.

So there it is. In a nutshell that is our life. And just so you all know, if you are ever near Saskatoon or North Battleford area, we would love to give you directions to Ranger Lake to stop by for a visit. Summer here is going well for ministry, God is doing some amazing things in the lives of our staff and many, many campers. We wish you could all come be witness to His work. Until next time, (which will probably be after camp) God Bless.


Pressing On

So I glanced at the calendar and realized that it’s March…. What? How did we get here so fast? It seems like winter is fading away and I hardly remember it. Maybe it was all the craziness of Norah’s journey that made everything seem to pass by so fast. Either way I am now looking at the calendar and the huge amounts of things on it as Spring brings many things for us. House renovations getting done; which will bring a slew of jobs for me soon; to spring LIT retreat, youth group visits, lots of R/C Truck Events, planning programming, beginning to start thinking about video for this summer, and the list goes on and on. And this doesn’t even include all the things on the calendar for our family. Luckily one of those is a family vacation in Edmonton for Easter. I am really hoping this will help put my head on straight before Spring really hits and I start heading out to camp for rentals, staff training, etc, etc.

As always, the think to take a backseat is this site. Many are probably checking back here for updates on Norah. But she is doing so well that I forget to tell everyone that. She’s great. Growing, getting chubbier everyday. So makes us all smile each day. I wish you could all come cuddle her and see for yourself just how much she has changed. Pictures are cute (I guess I should post more too) but they don’t really show how much she has changed in the past month. She has healed so well that we are starting to pick her up under her arms now. So glad for that. Makes it easier to cuddle with her. Before we know it she will be rolling over.

I wish I could write something profound and earth shattering here. But life really seems to be “back to normal” for the first time in a long time. And by normal I really mean busy. At least that’s what I keep telling myself.

Before you know it, it will be summer and we’ll be moved back to camp for the summer.


Year Round

So its been a whirlwind past few weeks. When camp ended we left the very next day for our family vacation to Idaho. It was a great trip and if you aren’t alive and haven’t seen some of our pics on Facebook, just look me up here. I could give you a long story on our vacation but I don’t feel like updating many weeks in one post. I just need to get back into regular posts here. So here goes…

In my last post the most pressing prayer request was my job situation. For those that don’t know, my job at Ranger Lake Bible Camp will continue to year round. We are so excited about this answer to prayer. Already I am busy preparing program, brochures, theme for next year at camp. I am excited to use the skills and gifts God has given me here at Ranger. I am also very excited to be doing alot of work with our newest program of the Radio Controlled Trucks. So much so that I bought my own! More on that on another post. So our fears are done away with and I will have a job when our new baby arrives in around 7 weeks!!

So vacation ended and then I got sick! This has been the worse sickness I have had in 10 years. So much that when I went to my doctor they didn’t have record of me being a patient because I hadn’t been in 10 years. I guess sometime ago they upgraded to a new computer system and “old” patients didn’t get put into the system, so I got deleted. Needless to say I ended up at a new doctor in Stonebridge area, which actually helped me, and with very little wait time. After going on antibiotics for awhile the sickness seems to be gone, however, the energy levels aren’t quite there yet. After all these years of not being sick, I realized how blessed I am for my strong immune system. Here’s hoping it returns soon.

So mark this down on your calendars, Daryl is back from summer. Holidays are over, summer camps are done, sickness is gone, so I am officially back. If I have a long time between now and my next post, I blame it only on myself.