Daryl Grunau

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Solitude part 2


I love camp fires, especially late in the summer. You know when it gets cold at night and its that perfect temperature to sit by the fire, feel the warmth, but not get swelteringly hot like in July. I have always found it so easy to sit and reflect beside a fire. It reminds me of those nights when I was younger at Kadesh. We would sit around the fire and long to sing songs for hours and hours. I remember singing, Father of Lights, an old song now I’m sure, and watching God amaze us with the most spectacular display of northern lights. Those where good times. I felt God so close in experiences like that when I was young. I wish I could say that my time at Ranger Lake was just like those moments around the fire when I was younger, with just as much a deep spiritual connection to God. But I can’t. Instead, I felt nothing at all like that. I find it interesting that the experience I am going through right now comes at the same time as I read this blog today over at nakedpastor. Mother Teresa Me and You. It speaks of the struggle Mother Teresa went through without sharing, a heavy burden that she shared with no one. The article states something interesting, “Now that she is no longer with us and her letters are being published, perhaps the next and most important leg of her ministry will begin: giving people permission to express their spiritual struggles and inner torments.” While I don’t know where I am on this journey, or as St.John of the Cross calls it, a “Dark Night of the Soul,” what I do know is this: we must be free to share struggles, to be allowed to question, and to even doubt God’s presence in our lives. Openness and vulnerability are things which we need even more in our communities of faith. That is how I try to write on this blog….
So while I didn’t feel a deep spiritual connection around the fire at Ranger, I did notice something…the fire was bright, it was hot, but for some reason I keep having to trek into the woods for more fire wood. I noticed I had to do this quite alot in the first hour or so. It reminded me of my personal faith….the fire can be extremely hot, and bright, but I must continue to hike, trek, and put fuel onto the fire or it will burn out. So while I don’t always feel God’s presence or get a great spiritual experience, I must keep fueling the fire. I read in Pete Grieg’s book “God on Mute,” about a man who lost all taste for food. Eating gave him no pleasure, but to survive he had to keep eating, therefore, so must we continue to seek out truth, to pray, to seek times of solitude. They are the fuel for the fire, even if we have lost that connection. For one day we will be made complete, we will taste and see once again.

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zen and the art of poker booking

So this post is my frustration with people….in the beginning of June when my garage was ready to be used as a drop-in center(complete with pool table, fridge, tv’s, etc) I began to plan for a guys poker night. I was very excited as renovations, packing, unpacking all made it nearly impossible to plan a poker night, which I had been having at our old house. So when I sent out the email I was rather excited…however, I had one guy respond…everyone else was busy…off to camp. I figured to myself that it was bad timing and I would wait till after summer. Then at the end of August I sent out another email…now I had been working on the house and garage even more and I was ready to hangout in there even more…what happened…everyone busy again…so I cancelled it for the second time.
So we are now catch up to today…currently I am planning a poker night for this Saturday, which I changed from last week, so this Saturday will mark the fourth time I have try to invite people to my new garage, house to hang out. Right now I have three people…wow, that’s triple the previous attempts, but still short of a good group of people. The emails I am getting back are…I’m busy…I have a hockey draft(hockey, people still follow that…geeezzzz), I have to wash my hair, my wife won’t let me…(I forgot to mention that since we can play poker and pool in the garage, that spouses are welcome to come hangout with my wife and the other wives), I don’t know how to play poker (i’ll be more than happy to teach you, I’ll even lend you many hours of poker on tv if you want to watch and learn at your leisure).
If you haven’t figured it out….I am frustrated with people and there busy schedules. Come on, I have a busy schedule, a family, a job, make time for me, the little guy. How far in advance do I have to book these things anyways, who do I have to call to make it happen? Please give me the name of your secretary and I will call to book an appointment if necessary. I have better luck booking Gymblast® for 70-80 schools then I do booking a poker night for 6-10 people.

Sorry you all had to be here for that…tomorrow…I will hopefully have calmed myself….
Maybe I should just return to that place of solitude at Ranger Lake. Didn’t have any problems booking anything there.

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Solitude Part Two


I love camp fires, especially late in the summer. You know when it gets cold at night and its that perfect temperature to sit by the fire, feel the warmth, but not get swelteringly hot like in July. I have always found it so easy to sit and reflect beside a fire. It reminds me of those nights when I was younger at Kadesh. We would sit around the fire and long to sing songs for hours and hours. I remember singing, Father of Lights, an old song now I’m sure, and watching God amaze us with the most spectacular display of northern lights. Those where good times. I felt God so close in experiences like that when I was young. I wish I could say that my time at Ranger Lake was just like those moments around the fire when I was younger, with just as much a deep spiritual connection to God. But I can’t. Instead, I felt nothing at all like that. I find it interesting that the experience I am going through right now comes at the same time as I read this blog today over at nakedpastor. Mother Teresa Me and You. It speaks of the struggle Mother Teresa went through without sharing, a heavy burden that she shared with no one. The article states something interesting, “Now that she is no longer with us and her letters are being published, perhaps the next and most important leg of her ministry will begin: giving people permission to express their spiritual struggles and inner torments.” While I don’t know where I am on this journey, or as St.John of the Cross calls it, a “Dark Night of the Soul,” what I do know is this: we must be free to share struggles, to be allowed to question, and to even doubt God’s presence in our lives. Openness and vulnerability are things which we need even more in our communities of faith. That is how I try to write on this blog….
So while I didn’t feel a deep spiritual connection around the fire at Ranger, I did notice something…the fire was bright, it was hot, but for some reason I keep having to trek into the woods for more fire wood. I noticed I had to do this quite alot in the first hour or so. It reminded me of my personal faith….the fire can be extremely hot, and bright, but I must continue to hike, trek, and put fuel onto the fire or it will burn out. So while I don’t always feel God’s presence or get a great spiritual experience, I must keep fueling the fire. I read in Pete Grieg’s book “God on Mute,” about a man who lost all taste for food. Eating gave him no pleasure, but to survive he had to keep eating, therefore, so must we continue to seek out truth, to pray, to seek times of solitude. They are the fuel for the fire, even if we have lost that connection. For one day we will be made complete, we will taste and see once again.

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One volunteer

Well today I got one volunteer for D4….one girl and two guys is our total staff right now. We are still looking for at least another staff before we begin. Oh, and I will get to solitude part two soon. Its been a busy time, organizing for the start of the year and all.
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Solitude part 1


On Monday I had a chance to get out of the city for some silence and solitude with God. This was a great experience, and while I didn’t come away from the time with burning bush experience. It did give me a chance to reflect on some things. Hopefully I will find time to write about some of those things later. It was a great time to enjoy nature and to unplug. The picture is a photo taken of my campsite at the end of the lake, out at Ranger Lake. Beautiful. I encourage you all to find time to get away, alone.

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More in the school

While earlier this week I found out that our D4 program will be returning to Queen Elizabeth School, then yesterday I found out that on Tuesdays after school I will be allowed to run a Disorganized Sports program. The program is exactly what it sounds like, sports of all kinds, in a disorganized way. We will then be able to have a “Coaches Corner” time where I can share a brief thought for the day. This program provides students something to do after school in a safe environment. I am excited to meet new students. As well, with the program running on Tuesdays it will be a great time to invite them out to the next nights D4.
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Cut to the bone

Following is a quote from a blog I read recently about blogging and facebook and I feel that its a great commentary on things. Click on the link to read the rest.

Blog is dead…

I too have noticed not only on this blog but on every other blog server that there are no more postings except by a few Christian writers. This distresses me because … with everything the world is becoming to convenient without any worry of actual thinking! SO now have with sites like Facebook taking over in which there is only surface level garb with no meat to it at all.

I think that this is a great wake up call for my current writing and I need to get back to writing. This comes at a great time for me. Next week, all of the YFC staff here in Saskatoon are going on a 24hr Solo. What that means is that I will pack up a tent and hike, canoe to a quiet place at the far end of Ranger Lake(where we are all going) and be completely alone in solitude for 24hrs. No cellphones, internet, or ipods. While I have generally enjoyed times of solitude in the past, I have never engaged in one for this long of a time before. But it could spur on some writing, which is just what my blog needs.

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D4 needs your help

Update: Last night we finally secured our D4 location. D4 will move to Wednesday night this year. This is great news. However, the one girl volunteer I had cannot be involved on this night due to university classes. I only have one volunteer now. Please get a hold of me if you are interested.

We are currently looking for Godly leaders for to join the ministry at Dimension Four at our Queen Elizabeth location for this fall. If you are interested please contact me by replying or email me: daryl AT yfcsask.com
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Fall is here…

It is September and fall is here indeed. While some questions about Dimension Four still loom in the air, I am beginning to gear up for the kickoff to many programs. Hopefully D4’s issues will be resolved tonight and I can finally start to advertise the when and where to students. In addition to the D4 I am running for grades 7-9, I will begin a new D4 this fall for high school students. This group will be held at my house and garage. This group is going to be alot smaller (i am in my house after all) and will seek to go alot deeper in the spiritual climate of the group. I am praying that this will become a great core group of students that I can disciple further and to give them chances to step out in action over this next year. Most of these students I have known for at least 3 years and I am excited for this chance to speak in their lives.
I will also be increasing my ties with the schools I am involved in. I am hoping to be running two after school programs at Queen Elizabeth and John Lake School. This programs have typically been great feeders to our D4 programs and our often the start of a students connection with Jesus.

My wife and I are also excited to become involved in Fuse at Cornerstone this year. Fuse is taken on a different look, with a more intimate setting and we are excited to get involved in this. Fuse is going to be meeting twice a month at the church and then encouraging groups to meet during the off weeks in home to continue the discussions. We are planning on hosting groups at our home as well.//Fuse is going to be following teaching from Erwin McManus// If you are interested come on out Sept 18th at 7:30pm for some coffee and a chance to experience God.

Hey, just wondering….does anyone actually read this blog anymore?
I know that I have been letting it slide alot more recently and I would like to change that…. if you would like to see, read more here… please let me know….